Howdy, all! Hope you all enjoyed a great holiday weekend and thanked those who have served and are currently serving our nation!
If you missed what I was up to this weekend, check out my beach recap. Or if you want to learn a little more about competitive swimming (or see a hot picture of Ryan Lochte), check out my swimming lingo post!
Now, let me take you to yesterday. I was feeling pretty freaking bad about myself. I know you’re not supposed to compare yourself to anyone else, including your former self, but I just couldn’t help it. Coming back from the beach and looking at pictures of myself is disheartening.
Let’s just do a little compare/contrast. Two years ago, I was 25 pounds lighter, much faster, and injury free. I even ran a 5k in 24:57 way back when! For some, that’s not fast, but for me it is! Not just that, but I enjoyed life, too. Not that I don’t enjoy life now. I was just generally happier.
Now, I am two pant sizes bigger, can barely run a mile in under 10 minutes, lack self-confidence, and can’t seem to work out without pain. Not soreness, but legit pain. I don’t know if weight/injury go hand in hand, but I wouldn’t throw that possibility out the window.
One thing that I guess doesn’t change: my skin tone. Gosh I am a pasty Italian!
I decided today that I really need to do something about this. I need to feel more confident and comfortable in my own skin. I know weight is just a number, blah, blah, blah. But I can feel that my body is different, and I don’t like it.
So today, I took it to the park to start pushing myself to change my attitude and my life.
How I made it through five years in Ship without visiting this park is beyond me. I cranked out a five mile run/walk in about an hour.
As you can tell, I ran “laps” 1, 3, and 5. It ended up being about 3 miles of running and 2 of walking. I’m fine with that. My speed and endurance could definitely use a little work, though.
The best parts of the workout:
Pretty views and a gazebo for post-sweat stretching!
The worst parts of the workout:
The fact that my right hip is doing just what my left one did that caused me to go to PT for 3 months…
And the post-run ice bath. I used reusable ice cubes haha Don’t judge.
This whole thing is so frustrating. And the hardest part is that I go places and want to try new things every weekend. That totally throws my eating and exercising patterns off, and I really need to work on that. I may be showing more workouts/eats to try and hold myself accountable.
Any suggestions, motivation, or help would be greatly appreciated
Have you ever been in a similar situation? What did you do to get over the “hump” and get focused on changing yourself!?